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eunice
ユニス☆
the RAINBOWS will tell my STORY
and for ME
it shall be PAINTED with the SKY
orion
people wish me happy birthday on every August 13th~!
im proud to be a Catholic
and addicted to japan related things
loves; ♥hamham&family
green and yellowphotography&writing poems
spacing out and smiling/laughing
japan&kawaii stuff
playing the guitar&
drawing cute faces(^U^)
a little note;
i say NO to ✖copycats✖
because everything on me&in me
are Copyrighted!
&& please don't flood or spam too.
nasty people,go away~!
Hate me ? Click Here .
Enjoy~♥
santa claus please;
•family to be in good health & wealth{❤} •meet hamham again{❤}
•get good grades for 'O's{!} •canon camera{!}
•japanese kimono{!} •trip to japan{!}
•a kitten & puppy{❤} •japan related stuff
•white headress •meet沙我&虎{❤!}
•immigrate to JAPAN!~{!}
eunice
ユニス☆
the RAINBOWS will tell my STORY
and for ME
it shall be PAINTED with the SKY
people wish me happy birthday on every August 13th~!
im proud to be a Catholic
and addicted to japan related things
loves; ♥hamham&family
green and yellowphotography&writing poems
spacing out and smiling/laughing
japan&kawaii stuff
playing the guitar&
drawing cute faces(^U^)
i say NO to ✖copycats✖
because everything on me&in me
are Copyrighted!
&& please don't flood or spam too.
nasty people,go away~!
Hate me ? Click Here .
Enjoy~♥
santa claus please;
•family to be in good health & wealth{❤} •meet hamham again{❤}
•get good grades for 'O's{!} •canon camera{!}
•japanese kimono{!} •trip to japan{!}
•a kitten & puppy{❤} •japan related stuff
•white headress •meet沙我&虎{❤!}
•immigrate to JAPAN!~{!}
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!READ
Now
I really know
Sadness
Is my unwanted
But yet
always clinging on me friend..
~★~★~★~★~★~
well,i just want to make it clear again.
today,i went to serve as a warden again.
during the first collection,i was given the position
L4 which means left side,row 4 in the church.
i collected all the money accordingly and the guy,
which was suppose to be collecting L3 didnt know how
to collect so he just walked away leaving the whole bench,
or should i say,the whole L3&4 to me..
i had no choice at all to be collecting the L3 side as L4
had so many benches of people to collect from
so i ignore and told them sorry and quickly ran to the
warden's corner to put the money inside their bag.
during the communion,my senior warden picked me out
and scolded me.
she said;"why didn't you collect the peoples money?do you know
that someone complained?!do you even know your position?!"
and i replied,"yes.im L4 the corner row and i've already collected all
the peoples money" and i forced myself to smile.
she said back,"Then how come that lady will complain?!
she said its a girl who collected!"
i answered back,"no.i was collecting for L4 only and not L3."
and that warden totally ignored me and shove me off
and pushed me from the back to where i wasn't suppose to
stand at all..
obviously,i was unhappy but i forced myself thinking everything
will be fine after that.so i carried myself on.
the second collection came.
and i collected the same row again.
this time,that guy asked me where he should collect
so i pointed out to him and thought that this time,
it will be fine because he finally know where to collect.
but i was wrong..
he didnt collect the seats that were inside at all..
and this indian man that told me to go inside during
the first collection told me again on the second collection.
i knew i had no time to go in and collect those money but
i just followed his orders because he told me once
and i don't want anymore people to complain again.
finally,collected all finish and i immediately ran
to the warden's corner to put the money inside the bag
but the senior wardens thought that everyone(us)
had put our money inside so they tied the bag up and
when i reached there and they saw me,they started saying
this and that and why i had come so late.
i didn't want the wardens to scold the other guy because
that is very selfish of me.
so i just said i got stuck in the middle and the wardens were
unhappy..
i didn't want that to happen too..
i just acted like everything was fine and went back to my seat.
i wouldn't tell lies even if it benefits me.
why can't they just believe me?
i just don't understand what's in me during that moment.
protecting others even though i don't know them
and in the end getting myself killed.
moreover,this happened in a Church.
where was God at that time?
didn't they say that He's everywhere?
then,why isn't he beside me during that moment?
i really don't understand..
i shouldn't be crying over this matter..
neither angry..
im really disappointed,
disappointed in everything,everyone.
i hate those people.
i refer to those who has very little knowledge of me.
what i am,who i am.
those adults always think we are those
who are very fond of telling lies.
accusing me of things i didn't do..
how would you feeling being scolded and
accused in front of everyone?
seriously,i don't even know myself..
these days,it seems that the world is against me.
given a choice.
i would rather be an animal then a human..
忘れないで
5:49 PM
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Now
I really know
Sadness
Is my unwanted
But yet
always clinging on me friend..
~★~★~★~★~★~
well,i just want to make it clear again.
today,i went to serve as a warden again.
during the first collection,i was given the position
L4 which means left side,row 4 in the church.
i collected all the money accordingly and the guy,
which was suppose to be collecting L3 didnt know how
to collect so he just walked away leaving the whole bench,
or should i say,the whole L3&4 to me..
i had no choice at all to be collecting the L3 side as L4
had so many benches of people to collect from
so i ignore and told them sorry and quickly ran to the
warden's corner to put the money inside their bag.
during the communion,my senior warden picked me out
and scolded me.
she said;"why didn't you collect the peoples money?do you know
that someone complained?!do you even know your position?!"
and i replied,"yes.im L4 the corner row and i've already collected all
the peoples money" and i forced myself to smile.
she said back,"Then how come that lady will complain?!
she said its a girl who collected!"
i answered back,"no.i was collecting for L4 only and not L3."
and that warden totally ignored me and shove me off
and pushed me from the back to where i wasn't suppose to
stand at all..
obviously,i was unhappy but i forced myself thinking everything
will be fine after that.so i carried myself on.
the second collection came.
and i collected the same row again.
this time,that guy asked me where he should collect
so i pointed out to him and thought that this time,
it will be fine because he finally know where to collect.
but i was wrong..
he didnt collect the seats that were inside at all..
and this indian man that told me to go inside during
the first collection told me again on the second collection.
i knew i had no time to go in and collect those money but
i just followed his orders because he told me once
and i don't want anymore people to complain again.
finally,collected all finish and i immediately ran
to the warden's corner to put the money inside the bag
but the senior wardens thought that everyone(us)
had put our money inside so they tied the bag up and
when i reached there and they saw me,they started saying
this and that and why i had come so late.
i didn't want the wardens to scold the other guy because
that is very selfish of me.
so i just said i got stuck in the middle and the wardens were
unhappy..
i didn't want that to happen too..
i just acted like everything was fine and went back to my seat.
i wouldn't tell lies even if it benefits me.
why can't they just believe me?
i just don't understand what's in me during that moment.
protecting others even though i don't know them
and in the end getting myself killed.
moreover,this happened in a Church.
where was God at that time?
didn't they say that He's everywhere?
then,why isn't he beside me during that moment?
i really don't understand..
i shouldn't be crying over this matter..
neither angry..
im really disappointed,
disappointed in everything,everyone.
i hate those people.
i refer to those who has very little knowledge of me.
what i am,who i am.
those adults always think we are those
who are very fond of telling lies.
accusing me of things i didn't do..
how would you feeling being scolded and
accused in front of everyone?
seriously,i don't even know myself..
these days,it seems that the world is against me.
given a choice.
i would rather be an animal then a human..
忘れないで
5:49 PM